Ineffable Ontological Detanglement .: Introspective Assistance & Mental Analysis Manual
No, I don't like the insanity plea. Oh it's just his brain that made him do it, I guess he's forgiven. Now... I don't... Really get to say what I want to say next. There are multiple reasons I don't get to say what I want to say next. No I didn't say it no I didn't say anything.
It's one in ten million. In a lot of ways, it resembles sociopath however it is not exactly automatic, it's still a little automatic, however you can observe the layer of your mind automatically compartmentalizing, it's semi conscious. Now what you're looking at, is the entire process, it isn't just the compartmentalization of your experience you're observing, it's the entire system of compartmentalization. Everybody with this condition fragments themselves with it at the age of three. Generally, they do this after they've taken the option to enter a fairy tale land of the self. It's easy enough to tell this is what your child is doing, it becomes obvious. At this point... You shake some God damned sense into them, don't use this condition the way people used to use it. Now you know, now we know.
At the age of three, you clue into what you're doing... You're learning and organizing the world around you by semi consciously placing it within your mind. You quickly learn you have a new thing to play with. For a moment, you get to take full conscious control. Oh, I can put me in there. What are you going to do? What are you going to do? Don't say superman. DON'T SAY SUPERMAN. Oh fuck off he goes, he's fragmented himself. For the rest of his life he's a little bit superman. Superman in hell.
You started doing this when you were a child. As you grow, as you learn... You learn how to appear to be an adult. For some reason it doesn't seem to be going all the way in.
Your fragmented self is running a very complicated system. It learns how to counter everything you see. It learns how to place you above everything you see. If you're smart, your fragmented self learns exactly how to keep it a secret. As you grow, you're learning everything you need to know, all sorts of complicated information all over your life, you know just how to package it, behind the scenes. Does your life want to hurt you? Well then you're going to learn how to hurt your life, you're going to learn how to keep yourself pure and cute and innocent. You're going to learn how to repress your own memories. You're locked in, your only option is to go along with it. You know, everybody has a secret... Every one of you... Has an evil secret...
Do you remember? Do you remember what you did? Do you remember what you said? No I don't really remember... And I'm not going to remember this. I win!
You're self fragmented. You're self fragmented. Look at it, look at her. You see what she's doing? Yes you do, you can... See it. You can see it. You can see your mind. Now, what you need to do is look at all of it. All of it. Uh oh, here comes one third of your life. Uh oh, here comes everything you do to people internally, everything you do to yourself internally. You need to look at all of it, you need to brain tweak every last bit of this out of there.
I knew one of these people, I worked with him, one in ten million condition... A city of seven hundred and fifty thousand gets to have two of them. I guess, just to show me, help it come together. He really took it to out of this world ego places, he definitely had combining magical conditions as well. People can be a little alarmed when I just start engaging with people who live in loony concepts with understanding and analysis and complimentary arguments. The guy I worked with isn't this guy, but: "You're just going to argue in his synchronicity we are all one feelings at his refusal to accept anybody who challenges his ego within the philosophy of 'I don't believe there's really a myself' without acknowledging his face paint?" Didn't seem relevant. Even internally all I needed was one line, some non-verbal background heavy lifting and an imaginary cute smile then it was dropped. Everyone at work just kind of knew not to touch it, let him be. I didn't engage in the evil whispering and giggling, but, I wasn't entirely outside of it. I found aspects of him that I respected, he was more interesting than anybody else at my workplace outside of Sly Sylvestre. His fragmented self wasn't smart enough to know how to keep it a secret. He most certainly wasn't doing anything to anybody else with his condition, outside of himself or inside of himself, and he would commit action that justified his ego. And then float away with it...
Okay, you've figured it out. You have re-entered our world, you've been gone since you were three. Now what can you do with this condition? Well, you can just... Delete yourself, recreate yourself, give yourself whatever it is you need at any given time. What do you need to pretend to feel? What do you need to pretend to believe? What do you need to pretend to be? You retain yourself... Even if you don't bypass your perceptual filters, in some way you still retain yourself. You don't want to bother with the sociopathic process of proper decompartmentalization it can just be gone, done, sociopath deems following that process a superficial action anywawy I don't see the difference. You can learn very fast, you can learn out of this world fast. Not just knowledge, skillset. You stick it in there properly you immediately feel your skillset enter your instinct, enter your body awareness. You can look at your mind, you can organize your mind, you can take a running catalogue of what you've placed in your mind.
Don't repress your memories anymore. Stay away from that. NO... No. NO, stay away from memory repression. But, you can... Disconnect yourself entirely from the memory of what you used to be. That one feels justifiable. Cheater.