Ineffable Ontological Detanglement .: Introspective Assistance & Mental Analysis Manual
Now, the full explanation of all mysterious spiritual aspects of schizophrenia and the explanation of the spectrum of schizophrenia, the only condition that is in fact an actual spectrum, will require you to consult Incandescent Dincontifent Tinkendevent Process and What Does This Button Do? No it isn't some are also very paranoid. We like to start at the crazy schizophrenic and then label everything from there towards the normal as schizo however it actually makes more sense to go the other way. Schizo is base human functioning, with schizophrenia your biology has stated you've taken being within a people brain too far. The mental drifting brilliance that we all know, with schizophrenia has drifted towards the mental crack. Your mind has broken and now a bunch of shit is leaking in.
This is within conditions however this is a disorder. It's complicated, it's not like the other disorders, not even in the sense that it is a mere... Disorder which you can get a use out of. It's something that removes you from the world of people, some of you with light schizophrenia get to interact with us, but you know you're gone. You're in a broken brain you're gone, but, you're not in the same type of broken brain as any of the other disorders, you have something, you're going somewhere, some of you must, some of you MUST, you be this or else. You're not people anymore. Your disorder is that you don't get to be people. No not that kind of not people, the ones with light schizophrenia you still get to speak to like people but don't expect them to be people.
You hope they're maintaining a good grip on imposed expectation, however with this condition and in a lot of ways this condition alone you have to excuse a bit of a slip. At which point half of schizophrenics would prefer a little light mockery over the hard wall of paranoia. They will have moments where nothing within their cognitive functioning states they have any ability to stop this, they're just going to fly off.
You train yourself well enough in your alone time, thinking to yourself, delirious abstractions, you safety yourself in day to day conversation. However, of course, in day to day conversation you entirely lose yourself in the subject, your delirious abstractions will still fly out of your face. The best pre-emptive come back in this moment is probably a reach for the hopefully pretend knife in your pocket and a smile. You know how to watch them, but, sometimes they're coming out.
No a schizophrenic is never going to fly into a hallucinatory dream world of CIA codebreaking. Combine schizophrenia with maladaptive daydreams and a few other things you may be able to get reasonably close but you're never pulling off anything like John Nash in A Beautiful Mind. Generally once you're familiar with your schizophrenia it is not difficult to tell the difference between reality and hallucination however you may choose to not be too overly concerned with the difference.
The societal conspiracy against the paranoid schizophrenic is as follows... Society sees the paranoid person acting a little crazy, sometimes he can go to dark and delusional places, society can see paranoid schizophrenia go all the way to delusionalal murder rampages, and so soft gentle boring happy society places a barrier up around the paranoid person and makes him all the more paranoid, makes him feel all the more alone. It's us against them, the paranoids against the normals. So there's no global conspiracies because paranoid people are crazy. The paranoid schizophrenic knows he is experiencing something outside of our conception of reality but society knows schizophrenia has delusions in it, they cannot see the inside of his mind, so they can just blanket black and white declare the entire thing delusion. So they're trapped in their little bubble, all they have is their delusions, society says every last bit of it is false but I can see truth and so I'm all alone the only one who knows the truth, and so they follow schizophrenic delusion confirmation all the way to the bottom and become the broken charity case society wants them to be... So society gets to confirm their beliefs about schizophrenia I'm paranoid. The paranoid portion of the mental drift knows something, the paranoid schizophrenic mental crack knows a little more, however the entire thing is shrouded in self confirming evil darkness due to soft gentle boring happy society and their dimwitted sensibilities and society uses this shroud of darkness to protect itself from the concept of conspiracy.
You're not getting out of this one, schizophrenic. Based on our new understanding we could only ever say every other delusional hallucinatory snap fest is reversible. Except HPPD. This one you can only medicate.
No I am not taking FULL credit for this aspect of our new understanding. A lot of modern psychologists agree with me.
If you treat it right, you're in a temple. You're still within not a people disorder, you're not even going to be able to communicate ideally with the other schizophrenics unless you are within the same channel, the same point on the spectrum. For a proper explanation of the inside of schizophrenia, you wish to consult schizophrenia on What Does This Button Do?, for an explanation of the underlying karmatic process you wish to consult schizophrenic process on Incandescent Dincontifent Tinkendevent Process.
Yes, the doctors were correct I have schizophrenia. No, at level three cognitive functioning it contains no hallucination or delusion. However it most certainly comes with a higher propensity to click things like paranoia into sober hallucination. It's not really supposed to happen, level three cognitive functioning generally doesn't come out at the same time as the schizophrenia, it's likely never happened in the past, it could only ever start happening at the point of higher evolution, there's probably like five to twenty of us currently walking the Earth.
Your thinking goes wild, it goes off world, it connects right to the truth, immediately, sometimes the mysterious how did I see it truth, which is not that impressive anybody can do that. It takes a moment, but, I generally understand how I saw it, it's not any more mysterious than anybody else with this capability. Sparking into off world concepts, it can be surprising how easy it is to find the truth. Looking at painfully broken nonsensical garbage concepts, it's really easy to just look at it and know what it is and not feel anything towards it.
Your thinking is entirely stable, there's really no way for you or anybody to notice you have schizophrenia. Everything inside the brain runs perfectly normal and everything coming out the face sounds perfectly normal, it simply brings a heightened brilliance. It's impossible for me to fly off into the delirious speech patterns and threatening behaviour that declares the diagnosis, it will never happen.
Within existence maintains despite narrative, now things can get incredibly hallucinatory sober. Even when not sleep deprived. You have to understand... Am I looking at a person or am I looking at a synchronicity function? It's hard to tell, it becomes incredibly unfragmented sober hallucination. You speak to it the same either way, however a little under your face so either party knows you're speaking semi-consciously. That's how you know you're not a crazy person, that's how you know the psychological establishment could never possibly have anything on you. (Yeah the... Cat. Yes they do, but now I'm in sits physical because steinbach is dead steinbach is in action. stupid zoma. annoying. that was tripping me out)