Ineffable Ontological Detanglement > Mental Conditions

People always think the paranoid person is plotting, trying to defeat his evil delusional fantasy land with complex mass murder plans. Or am I just being paranoid that those are the vibes I get out of people when I express a paranoia? It's a useful condition, but you need to watch it. You see both it's value and it's dysfunctionality in the conspiracy theory culture. Even the smartest of us paranoid people can go to loopy magical places in our minds and be a little more invested in them than we should be, but it's just a thing we need to watch.

Paranoia is not learned behaviour, at least not the propensity for it, it is genetic. Choosing to engage in it, where you choose to engage in it, that is learned, the depths to which you will travel within your paranoia, that is genetic... And then damage compiles on top of it. No, not every aspect of psychology is about trauma. A lot of people will say "It has to be learned, because the alternative is that some brains just come broken, and that is such a HORRIBLE thing to say. The reason you are a non-functioning broken charity case is because of your horrible disgusting trauma, that is why it's okay to be this, that is why we can still somewhat allow these people in our society." The genetic condition presents itself somewhere around seven to nine, when the genetically predisposed element of yourself that is your brain begins to activate and organize. People with mid to high paranoia will start to have random horrid evil thoughts fly into their brain, don't worry about it Kit Carruthers your brain is just trying something on, exploring some territory, you can clearly see you're not getting lost in this.

Our perception peeks into certain cracks that others can never perceive, we can see a little deeper into people being people, however we can obviously take this too far into people being completely unreasonably evil unreasonable idiots doing completely unreasonable things for no reason. It goes beyond people, the paranoid mind is looking into all sorts of cracks within perception that others would never see, we only use the term when we see the person forming loopy delusional theories about other people. When you have the paranoid it can go quite well with the unrelated emotional issues that turn you into a bit of a people frightened people hating mess. However it is a thing that most certainly keeps you safe, it keeps you safe from the world of people outside of you that you hate and fear. Some in certain professions, such as drug dealer, require a paranoid mind to keep them safe.

The paranoid mind is more likely to see patterns, even non-paranoid patterns, obviously this leads to the paranoid mind being more likely to invent patterns. The paranoid mind is more likely to become aware of it's own processing functions and monitor their own thoughts, obviously this leads to feelings of their thoughts being guided by unknown forces. The paranoid mind is more likely to pierce beyond the surface of what is visible and known and into implications and causations, everything behind what is seen, it will not accept "no reason" as the answer to any question, not in social situations and most certainly not relating to the workings of the reality before them, obviously this means it is more likely to invent implications and causations. The paranoid mind is more likely to understand significance and relevance, obviously this leads to the paranoid mind being more likely to to create their own significance and relevance, more likely to apply the significance and relevance to them personally. They're more attune to their environment, every little hum, every little background flicker. If you find while reading something that for half a second your mind clicks onto the fact that all of the spaces between words are forming a perfect diagonal line, it becomes prominent within your perception and then disappears, this is either paranoid or schizotypal, the default mental filtering most people experience cracks for a second and gives you a pattern awareness for no reason. Cracking through the default mental filtering is something very popular amongst paranoid people.

General lies and secrets? You have to look at the reason people would be doing this, if there is no reason for people to be doing this people are not doing this. Follow all of your paranoid observational clicks, follow none of your paranoid pattern recognition, go over your entire life together with these people, go over everything you know about them. Do you know you're too fucking stupid to see what it is about yourself that people may be spreading secrets about? Well, then, it's possible they're spreading secrets. Hah. Lies? It's not very likely. The conspiracy of lies against you, that's something that only happens in childhood, we don't do this to you anymore at this age. A single person spreading lies about you? It's... Possible. This person is even more fucked up than you are. You're not the one who's being isolated. The conspiracy of lies MAY happen at the political level, it would be an incredibly off anomaly. It won't be within middle to high management, it would only ever be considerably higher than that. It's most certainly not happening at the interpersonal level. If you have ever revealed to anybody what you're feeling about this conspiracy of lies, you skip town you change your name.

Psychotic paranoia mostly revolves around a single central concept: Underneath many or all completely normal ordinary emotionally available pleasant happy people is the inner pure evil, everything about their outward expression is a lie and all they really want to do is conspire against you personally, and the reason they target you personally is likely because you're paranoid. This is the very bottom of all paranoia. Paranoid people, this is your bottom. This is probably not how you think, however everyone looking at the paranoid perception, this is the bottom of the perception and it is completely uniform across all paranoid people.

Gangstalking is impossible, of course there is such a thing as being watched, but there is no such thing as any powerful body selecting somebody from your life, introducing them to the conspiracy and telling them they are now to spend every moment of their free time following you to the grocery store and watching you wash your dishes. This one I have vaguely felt, when I lived on Balmoral, also you must note, stoned at all times, I would notice the same white van in very suspicious places, sometimes seeming to slow down beside me though of course always when I was walking down the exact same street, due to where I was in my life at the time I was able to develop all sorts of complex theories about who it could possibly be that's so invested in me... And then I would make fun of myself. And then later I would make fun of myself to my soul mates. Worse yet, before then, I was worried my roommate's girlfriend's psychology mind was starting to notice I was losing it and so she was getting people she went to school with to watch me for signs of psychosis, signs of psychosis relating to how I was losing my marbles thinking people were watching for signs of psychosis, I was less invested in this one but way the hell more horrified with myself. No, ex-roommate's ex-girlfriend, those were not the vibes you were getting from me, that was just general sick of your shit-ness, these vibes I kept to myself. Over this one I began a fear of impending break thoughts racing spiral, it ended on "Iyuhh... I'm... I'll just stop." If you have a reason to be watched you have a reason to be paranoid, there is no such thing as "This is a paranoid person, this is our target." I've heard people rant about how cowardly it is, people in your life just start following you around, deliberately introducing little hints, and they are solely motivated by making you develop a paranoid psychotic snap. There is no such thing as deliberately driving somebody into the very dirt just so you get the opportunity to tell them "You're hallucinating."

It is physically impossible to use microwaves and radio waves to interfere with your thoughts and feelings or read your thoughts. The only way to interfere with or read the inner workings of the mind is from inside the brain with neural implants, interference from outside is physically impossible. Even with a neural implant, it is physically impossible to tell the brain how and what to think, all you can do is nudge your thinking, you cannot nudge opinions and beliefs, you can only nudge lateral thinking possibilities, energy level, level of temperament and things of that nature. Though of course you can introduce mental scrambling, it's basically just electrocution from inside that nullifies your thinking for awhile. There is no such thing as taking over a brain. If you need physical proof that I am not in on the conspiracy, Dane Marshel has it for you in our essays. For now you can rely on: Digital signals can never be turned into organic signals, organic signals can never be turned into digital signals. The two can only observe each other and push each other not become each other.

HOWEVER, yes, the entire concept of authoritarian power would in fact be capable of the level of evil required to attempt to do this, entire concept of authoritarian power would do it if they could. Most of us do not reside in a nation with this level of evil in a position to do this without somebody putting a stop to it. Sometimes everyone on top is an evil conspiring pile of garbage and you cannot trust a damn thing you hear from the government, people in our position in the west simply need to be weary of what we hear from the government, we do not need to drive into the hidden deep evil every single time they communicate, not with all of them at least.

Targeted sleep deprivation... Would be a pretty good prank if you are in fact that evil. However, unless you know someone who presents that they reside in this level of evil, nobody would ever hold within an evil secret that they are capable of this behavior. The kind of person who would do this is a funny evil person who would make it known that they are a funny evil person. There is no such thing as a person with such a deep hidden inner evil that they would devote themselves to doing this to you entirely unprovoked. You're losing sleep because you're losing your marbles, nobody is going to drive you into a sleep deprived state just so they get the opportunity to tell you "You're hallucinating."

Gaslighting on a grand scale is possible, however only ever subconsciously semi consciously. This would never be done deliberately. The kind of person who deliberately gaslights is an individual who would never ever reveal his deep inner secret to the others that he is a gaslighter and so the idea of a whole lot of gaslighters getting together and deliberately conspiring is dipping into levels of evil that could simply never occur. And the goal of these gaslighters, of course, is to drive you into a paranoid psychotic snap and then tell you "You're hallucinating." However the gaslighter is about as fucked up as you get, and the fact that we know gaslighters exist is the kind of thing that fuels your paranoid fantasies, and... Rightfully so.

Synthetic synchronicity. You are looking at the pattern, you are seeing something, sometimes they represent things, sometimes they connect things, sometimes they do both. A hidden message, not so much. Something for you to figure out and solve, never. It most certainly isn't the government. 11:11 is not telling you to do math, Kit Carruthers, it's just a symbol. It's just synchronicity pattern recognition, the only deep message is that there is a synchronicity pattern.

Subliminal messages in every day sounds. We have experimented with subliminal messages in marketing, research the naked lady on the coke machine. We have experimented with subliminal messages for more nefarious purposes. You know MKUltra, paranoid person, you know allll about MKUltra, it's pretty much the epitome, it's pretty much the most evil thing the government ever could have done to concept of paranoia. However, it does not work as well as we thought it did and we have basically given up on it, we're not trying to insert anything into the day to day life of the paranoid. Obviously we're still doing brainwashing, you are still in danger from brainwashing, but subliminal message inserts are no longer really being done, and when they are done the intent is to be cute nobody is expecting it to work in any significant manner. This would probably be a good time to mention that there are. No. Subliminal. Messages. Within our work. Nowhere. Not one. They don't even work nobody's using them. However, yes, you're onto something. You're hearing something. It's... INSERTED. It's inserted by your unconscious mind, you are receiving communications from the central point of paranoia, not quite in the Jungian unconscious archetype type manner but close enough. However nobody outside of the central point of paranoia is going to be sending you secret messages just so they get the opportunity to tell you "You're hallucinating."

The, I can only hope bottom, of the bottomless depths of me was at my maternal grandfather. He's reasonably harmless, at this age he's okay, he's okay in order to save himself from his own Satan work as a young man. When he was far younger he actually did have a genuine sense of duty and honour, no feelings, but, genuine sense of duty and honour, now it's all packaged into his simple minded expressions of feeling regret to serve himself. But. He's not hurting anybody. He is absolutely obsessed with Revelations, he's a crazy person, he thinks it's clearly happening right now. After having just been released from my panic disorder but now realizing okay I'm still way psychotic in the paranoid department I was at a family gathering. I noticed simultaneously my grandfather carefully watching me drink my coffee and the coffee tasted kinda funny. It took about three seconds. Because he wants to poison his entire family so they don't have to live to see Revelations. Uh oh. And now I'm a little too within the paranoia than I'm usually comfortable with. UH OH. Sorry grandfather, well you'll never end up reading it. I was thinking... Maybe you were too simple to realize the rat poison goes in the coffee after you cook it. I was most certainly nowhere near all the way in it, but, I was a little too in it. I would watch him carefully observing the rest of the family as they were eating. Ooohhh he's still trying. No, he likes watching people enjoy the fruits of his labour.