Ineffable Ontological Detanglement > Mental Conditions

No, it is not a spectrum. It's a single line of parameter up and down just like any other non-schizophrenia condition that comes with parameters. Everything else is just how your brain is handles the autism... Level of intelligence, whether or not you bypass your perceptual filters, exactly what gifts you were given. The eidetic memory thing, it depends how good your base memory functioning is, then autism pushes it further. The sensory overload thing, same deal. With eidetic memory no you are not IN that moment at all times like people often assume, however it is always stealing your hyper focus. Dane Marshell has vaguely painful memory abilities, mine are not, there is a little bit of space between myself and painful. His don't headache painful him they're just mentally painful.

There is no such thing as vaccines causing autism, there is no such thing as ANYTHING causing autism after your birth. Autism is a thing you are born with. The implication behind vaccines causing autism being that autism is brain damage, it isn't meant to be. The next insult being that it's better to risk death than to risk autism. Autism is not inherently broken, it is not a broken brain that accidentally fires in brilliant directions. It is a brilliant brain that accidentally fires in broken directions.

Your brain is being hard pressed into the hyper focus. Your brain is trying to extract too much out of itself. It's more densely overconnected. People will say miswired and uneven, but, that is the natural result of a hard press. You have a lot of neural faulty fire. Overdeveloped lopsided grey matter reaching for a compensation that cannot be found. A lot of it is firing just right, it is, but it's only natural with all of that going on a little bit will kerblitz, and it's always kerblitzing in the same places, and the way it kerblitzes is always just right for a troubled genius, as with all faulty fire. There is no such thing as a neural misfire, it does not exist, no matter how fucked up your brain am there is no misfire, there is only varying degrees of faulty fire.

If, like me, when somebody is doing something you don't understand you have the ability to "why" them like they're doing this for no reason they just broke, you have autism. The miniscule little spark of autism that gives you your brilliance but in no way overwhelms you to the point of becoming socially retarded. If anything it makes you socially superior, as it gives you the ability to be outside of our social interactions observing them analytically and knowing to your core what is correct behaviour, what kind of interaction could never possibly give anybody the ability to label you a weirdo, unless of course they're a weirdo, how all of your statements could potentially be perceived... Of course most of us brilliant autistic people must often bypass the last one because we know people perceive like idiots and we just have to leave it. It's actually easier to place yourself within what you are observing in social interaction with this level of autism, people without it are more likely to spot negative behaviours in others and not be able to place this awareness upon themselves, they can't step back from the social interaction and observe themselves within it as well as those with this level of autism. Obviously step too far outside of our interactions into this feeling and you become lost. You have no idea what any of this is anymore, what the hell are these people doing? What's a social cue? I bet it's broken. Not all analytical people have this small amount of autism, however all stepped back a little from what they're analyzing people have this small amount of autism.

Anybody who is obsessed with calling people "weird" is generally within this feeling, however not smart enough to know what to do with it. They cannot attain the social brilliance available within this miniscule amount of autism because they're simply too stupid, however they can peek at this brilliance and something about this brilliance is telling them they are weird. And so they elevate themselves into the position of the king or queen of normal, most of them wincing at the fact that they are incredibly weird for finding these things weird, they are incredibly weird for thinking THIS is an example of normal. Even though... You actually probably are reasonably normal. You're weird. This miniscule amount of autism, as with all autism, works best in a mind with natural perceptual filter bypass. A mind that does not bypass it's perceptual filters with this amount of autism will inherently become... Annoying. Not necessarily autistic annoying, not necessarily obsessed with people's weirdness annoying, but you're off, you probably find yourself some sort of brilliant analyzer, probably some sort of brilliant analyzer of people. You're annoying.

If your brain is going all the way into this feeling, as a small child you will likely understand "People seem to give a positive reaction when this particular phrase is delivered." Now it doesn't matter if it is related to the topic of conversation whatsoever, this is what you will be telling people, this is how to make people happy. As an adult, this becomes Dane Marshell. As a child are you doing it so people see you as acceptable? People see you as one of the normal people doing normal people interaction things? Not really, you're pretty much outside of the concept of weird or normal interaction altogether, it's just normal that you would be a normal person saying the normal things that make people feel the normal happy in normal reality. As you grow older it most certainly becomes this, it evolves, it becomes more analytical. Sometimes you feel you have a handle on it, sometimes you feel you may have no idea what you're doing whatsoever and everyone thinks you're a weird annoying idiot. It may drive you into the internal dirt, it may destroy you. Now, that's if, as a child, you ever make it past the answer to the question "...Why? Why on Earth would we speak? What is that even doing what does that achieve?" Natural extroversion will save you from this conundrum.

As the inherent normalness from childhood maintains itself and you begin to learn underneath this you are weird you begin to ponder... "Am I the one who's weird or am I the one who's normal? Is reality the thing that's weird or is reality the thing that's normal?" In a lot of ways you're locked into a very confusing world and it's just normal. It's just normal that you would behave this way and it's just weird that reality takes it as weird but you know you're the one who's weird and reality is the one who is normal and this is normal everything is normal and that's weird and that's normal and that's weird and that's normal. But you're locked, if you're far gone even as a person with natural perceptual filter bypass you are locked. And sometimes you're right, you said a thing that should be normal and reality is weird, why on Earth would reality take that as weird? Because reality doesn't understand, reality is locked into societal conceptions of what's normal. But... Sometimes society is right, you're weird. Find the other ass burgers and be weird together.

Of course, at this stage, as soon as you observe something you do not understand, "No reason it's broken" becomes incredibly overwhelming and it really makes you wince it's no longer funny. You can be flooded with painful thoughts of "broken broken broken broken broken broken broken WEEEEIIRRRD WEEEEEIIIIRRD WEEEEEIIIIIRRD" that start with reality is broken and end on you are the one who is broken. And weird. Why the hell did you find that weird? You're weird.

Outside of our interactions entirely, in your own little world, automatically understanding everything, it is incredibly easy to auto confirm a delusion and fly at the person very obviously knowing you very obviously know exactly what's happening here that's very obviously assumed it's obviously automatically exactly what I want it to be obviously and this is normal, and make a big fat idiot out of yourself... Dane Marshell. If you dare utter the words "Try to see it from their perspective" when this has happened your name has been noted, you have been placed on a list, you'll find out what happens to you eventually.

An autistic person will not deliberately self delude, they prefer to follow the logic in front of them and if the logic in front of them is telling them they don't get to delude themselves they know they don't get to delude themselves. However the autistic mind is full of delusion, the autistic mind will always assume they know what's happening and the autistic mind is isolated from the social experience assuming everyone is behaving broken, everyone is out to get them, often times it's because they're jealous. Everyone really is out to get them, it is a logical analytical conclusion, hopefully we can fix this for the autistic person. People are probably not jealous but I can see how their isolated self important logic would bring them there.

Stepped back entirely from our experience observing it, obviously we know the autistic mind goes to places of stunning analytical brilliance. A lot of these people need to meet the moment of "I give up with the people side of this life experience, this is not a concept that can be analyzed logically and mathematically, I am to focus on things that are inanimate." Outside of this experience they were looking at people as points of the experience, isolated variables... THERE'S TOO MANY VARIABLES. "I think I can graph a single person within a calculus framework sometimes but then it all falls apart, and then just as I think I have it a new variable enters the room and I have to solve that one. It's far too overwhelming I CAN'T DO IT. AAaannggh!! *repeatedly hits the side of their head*"

The automatic deep focus on the isolated variables that make up everything that one could ever perceive can of course be incredibly painfully overwhelming, if it goes all the way to the minds we label broken it hits every centre of your senses and makes light and noise ridiculously painful, the intensity of it is enhanced significantly and it becomes the focus. The parent, or... Handler, of the autistic child with this oversensitivity will often tell their child "STOP THIS. You are an annoying child. I have the brain too the brain DOES NOT have an oversensitivity to light and sound." At this stage it's easy for the parent to assume they have an annoying broken retard child, everything fits together like a puzzle, it's an annoying child, from here the child is doomed, the child will never live a happy life, "A comfortable happy me is an irritating me. I see it too, all of the variables fit."

You're outside of existence observing existence and you're absolutely focused. The aspects of the feelings of "outside of existence" can warp you into constant restrained panic, when you can't grasp anything but the variables you are observing it is emotionally painful to levels you cannot comprehend. When for moments you grasp at what you are way too outside of it can really make you wince. People who know they can sorta grasp it but they know they can't grasp it as well as the variables they can understand can really become agitated. Combine this with self importance, the fact that they know all of these ridiculously moronic simpletons so easily understand something that to them is so complicated and incomprehensible, and you have yourself a grumpy retard.

Your brain may be so auto focused that the second the variable presents the variable is solved. You yourself, you as a person, are simply a vessel of solving this variable, frightened, confused, you may barely know or not even know at all that you are a people and the rest of us people are interacting. Sometimes you may think you want this interaction but you don't really know what you want, you may not even understand the concept of you desiring and you have no idea what it is your brain is doing in this moment but you know it makes you sad and frightened. A perceptual filter bypass mind can be this person and... Sort of, almost, keep it together. Sort of, almost, interact. It can go to places like allowing themselves to engage in the fully overwhelming sound and light can purify their thoughts for a moment, draw them away from the overwhelming world of variables. They'll never be one of us, they'll never hide it as well as the guy in The Accountant, but they can kinda... Sorta... Be people. Almost. This kind of person is cool to listen to, as they can comprehend their own auto solve abilities.

When autism goes all the way to a complete inability to communicate, all they can do is move their body and flash back and forth between happy and frightened, in childhood it looks like they're reasonably happy in there, they're having some sort of fun, and in a way they are... However as their mind becomes more developed they start to understand something isn't right here. We say the reason they grow darker and flatter in their feelings as an adult is due to the world around them becoming more complex and stressing them out. No, their engagement with the world outside of them is not the issue, it is a thing they were only ever just barely grasping at anyway, change can be frightening to them however even after residing within their new world for several years they do not regain the happiness. They do not want to be this. "Why does it look so unhappy? It used to be happy. I guess we're not doing a good enough job maintaining it, we're introducing too much stress."

Who knows what's happening in there as they're doing this, they may well be automatically mathematically solving the puzzle that is the chaos theory synchronicity pattern and integrating it with every possible law of physics based on the positioning of the objects on the table in front of them as they stare at it drooling. Crying and overwhelmed with the fact that their brain is automatically doing all sorts of complex analysis and they have absolutely no idea what any of it is or even what an is is all they know is it hurts. Who knows.

No, retard, you don't get to say "I've found and labeled the part of my brain that makes me annoying so now you can't call me annoying anymore." It's okay you have autism, it's okay, but, you found that in the basin of society thoughts, we feel sorry for people with conditions, we have to feel sorry for you, that's what you're saying. You don't want that one. Also, 40% of us are somewhere on the spectrum, so, you're still pretty normal in some ways you're not that special, you're a normal annoying person.

"I don't NEED you to tell the centre of the universe that the centre of the universe is just like us. Obviously the only reason you would tell me this is because you think I, the centre of the universe, wants to be normal, when I, the centre of the universe, would rather be the weird little centre of the universe. The weird little centre of the universe does not desire you removing them from the centre of the universe, I really don't understand why you are attempting to serve the weird little centre of the universe in this manner, there are better ways to make yourself useful."

Yes yes, the non-austitic people do not understand either. You were correct on that one. Now they can understand.

If you don't know how to handle your autism, you're putting your childhood related "I might be weird" insecurities onto your very perception and making everything fucking gross and weird and demented. And that's why you come accross as gross and weird and demented. Your confused baby fetish feelings are upon the world before you. All of the other autistic people would... like... you... to... stop.

No, auto confirm it came out of my brain is not the same as you confirming something logical outside of your brain with your brain. You fucking retard. You wanna hear the kind of shit that used to come out of Dane Marshell thinking he can auto confirm his understanding of social engagements to serve the centre of the universe? No you do not, no you do not. DELUSIONS do not auto confirm themselves because they come from the source. Especially your delusions about otherpeople. Do you want to turn otherpeople into the cackling menace of whispering secrets that you pretend they are? Tell them all of the delusions you're forming about them thinking they're a cackling menace of whispering secrets.

Do you know what they really are? Mildly that, about one eigth to one third the force of cackling menace of whispering secrets you pretend them to be. Do you know why they're that? Because you're this. Shut the fuck up. You know you're this. You can do it, pay attention to the behaviour, mark your own behaviour, DO NOT mark the other person's behaviour at this behaviour, DO NOT EVEN LOOK AT OTHER PEOPLE'S BEHAVIOUR. ONLY LOOK AT YOUR OWN. You can find the reason you do this, it's in there, if you need somebody to help you you need somebody to help you, it likely goes beyond the rest of this website but our team of devoted will give it a shot, but you can probably do it. Flatten out the reason you do this. You'll stop behaving in this manner.

STOP FORMING OPINIONS ABOUT OTHER PEOPLE. THE INDIVIDUAL, THE MASS. JUST STOP. GOOD, BAD, NOTHING, NONE OF IT. YOU DON'T GET TO HAVE OPINIONS ABOUT PEOPLE. THIS IS NOT AVAILABLE TO YOU. KNOCK IT OFF. Well, hey, there, look what happens now, suddenly everybody has stopped giving you a reason to form opinions about them. Don't even worry about why you like people, you just like them. Don't even worry about why you hate people, you just hate them.

The ridiculous far gone autistic, out of this world gone all you can do is solve the variables... When somebody begins to take issue with your social skills, the line is "I don't know how to say things that are not demented. Stop speaking to me." Some of you have been smart enough to find something resembling that line.